Free Write 1

here comes the electro
im pretty sure i was given too many chances. arent i on strike...who knows what, but well past three? was not i supposed to be out long ago? waiting for the destruction of the world. wait..it already is destroyed. see what i mean? my mind is blown. directionless. they say when caught out in the ocean, the worst is falling too below the surface, especially in the dark. elusive exit surface. im trapped below that mirky water. right, left, up, down, all become a slurry of choices that lead nowhere but deeper into the abyss. my lungs ache to expand. finally they are compelled to suck in. nothingness enters through my mouth. i swallow it continuously. im ravenous. like an infant, i root. my body lurches, searching for more nothingness to drink in. and then i am still. full of absence and darkness. i sink further. i like it here. no longer seeking out the exit. just falling graciously into a pit. i like it here. i am alone and safe. i like it here. never shall i worry about pain. or love. i like it here. i like it here. i like it here. it. here. i. nothing but words, not even a string. just words. vacant of meaning. i am vacant of meaning. in fact, without meaning, i does not exist. a hollow, forgotten word, from a forgotten past. here.